Lost Innocence

We are all children, deep inside below the layers of habitual thought, behind the veils of conditioning, beneath the ocean floor of our own ego’s image of self.
That little, playful, innocent, pure, beautiful children inside whatever body, how ever is shaped or aged.

“You can see it in the briefest of moments when looking at the mirror in the glimmer of your eye, or in a deep, intimate, self-introspection and meditation sometimes it surprises you, your own childlike Self.”

Deep inside everybody has a place for the Soul, a place of innocence.

It can be seen in the eyes, movements and words of people around you, on your work place, in public transportation, in a shopping mall.
Those moments are brief and far in-between, like spring bloom, but it can be seen if you look closely.
Through our lives as we “grow up” layers of conditioning and thought are build, painting that which is deemed acceptable for one’s age and any other behavior is unacceptable, unseemly, not only behavior, thoughts and aesthetics as well.
That is what distances us from magic and wonder in the world, what distances us from true Life filled beauty of world and makes this world grey and dull race towards self-obliteration.
That child inside You is your Self, your True Self and it will always stay like that because that child came into this world pure and clean and complete being, person.

“All personality and character traits that a incarnated Being into a human body in this world develops, are part of conditioning and a part of that blanket of forgetfulness that is intertwined with the nature of life here and now.”

Through time and lifespans every unique Soul Blossoms to its fullest.

You dream from that child, you love, but truly honestly love others from that child, you make art from that child and from its outlook not yours, you do magic from that child.
Dance separated from it, distanced from its playfulness is tainted, be it in art, love, sex, talk, thought, magic or anything else that that child wants to experience truly.
And that is the pitfall of many beings on this here Earth, loss of that simply innocence that instinctively knows the answer to everything.
Animals in the most part have retained that innocence, but those who live around humans too long are sometimes beginning to lose it as well.
Plants have that same innocence in their own way as they grow and unfold their leaves, flowers and blossom in beauty or draw inwards to gather strength for even more dancing.

“The clear and pure mindless playfulness when watching rain droplets on the window glass, the inquisitive leap when walking through the park and looking at nature, wanting, yearning to leap and run through unexplored paths, that is your inner crystal clear pure innocent child Self.”

You may miss it in yourself if you do not look closely.
Sometimes it appears just for a moment, sometimes it lingers and then gray clouds of you and your thought veil it again and it is lost, leaving you wondering was it there in the first place, is it there still, just a vague sense of its touch still present in the back of your mind.
It’s elusive, mysterious and unutterable, it can be beautiful and benevolent or it can be destructive as well, uncontrollable and uncontainable in every moment.
That is what the cosmic storms, hunting wolfs, wild drums and towering gods have in common with a little human child. And with a child in each and every living human with a soul.
It is not a peaceful and shining place for all, all the time, depending on the construct of one’s soul and the layers of experience that innermost core of a soul has accumulated on its journeys through its existence.
It can be painful, aggressive, and utterly obliterating as well as clear and blossoming joy but the connecting glitter in the eye, that purity is there whatever the dance it spins at a given moment.

“If an thunderstorm had the human eye, if an star had that same eye, you would see the same shine as you can see it in yourself and others that special moments when that inner childlike being breaks the surface of the ocean of a Being. That light in that eye is always, no matter what the situation and the urge is, pure.”

The inner child in every one could be creative as well as destructive.

How to connect with that inner innocent Being, how to let it out and should it be let out in the open?
As creative and playful it could be equally destructive depending on what the soul keeps deep inside its inner chambers, what pains and what wounds.
That is what dancing on various planes of existence is for, that is what cycle of Life is for to mutate and to mend the scratches and cuts, to thrive ever forward towards the All.
We are all from One, that is the All, but are not the same with it inside because there would be no need for dance and fractal perpetuating creation if we were.
In that way that inner child, that You, should be let out to dance in the world you inhabit at a given moment, to experience once again, to learn and change itself.
Because he or she is ever changing, ever growing but eternally a child.
However, it should be taught as well by experience of whole you, even you with ego that is a part of being alive and there is no around it, so it has room and inertia to change and mutate more.

“If that child dances constantly its instinctive patterns from core, if itself it never learns new moves, never remedies old falls and becomes stationary, that child becomes bored and goes to sleep which pushes it deeper and deeper in the being every cycle of life.”

The balance between all parts of you, be it mundane self, ego self, divine self and You as that child is the road to positive mutation and progress on the eternal road that a Soul, a Being, walks on.
That teeter-totter, which every conscious being has to ride in relation to its existence is the key towards perpetual change, healing, mutation, growth, blissfulness and enrichment of an eternal Soul.
Creative and blissful experiences, which that inner innocent child dances out, mutate it towards ever more joy and beauty in itself, brightening the light of inner Soul a bit more each and every turn and twist as it spins behind various faces and shapes in the rich ocean of Cosmos.
Every experience that is clear, without impurities from negative ego, which are blocks on the river of experience towards your inner Self actually, touches You, that child inside, your truest Self, and etches on the surface of it, changes it and mutates it.
Where you become one of infinite beautiful, each in its own way, shapes and patterns on tapestry of Creation.
From All, that is One with everything One with it, but everything separate in it and not so perfect, not completely one with it ever so that the Dance may continue and spin another round, ever more clearer and perfect shape in its imperfection.

“Connecting to it, pushing the veil of indoctrination aside and being  That child is achieved by being honest and true. Towards yourself, towards others, towards universe at large. “

No matter how weird, how awkward, playful or out of the place you are at a given time in a given situation, if you are true your inner Self is always closer to surface, ready to burst out at just the right influences and nudges from outside world and your inner world, working in conjunction.
Practical techniques for altered states, which are many, among other things bring that You on the surface so it can explore, rejoice or do magic. And by being closer to it, keeping it closer to surface every moment of your life, that techniques work better and without much effort than ever before.
You do not do magic or exploration of Creation only in your altered state, in the time of the day you set it for, you do it all the time, and should do it all the time, that child should play and explore, or at least be poised for its dance at a moment’s notice constantly.

The gentle dance of balance between all your Selves is as an absent-minded play of a child.

“You are Him or Her, and how ever not suited it may be at a given moment by environments, conditioning and habits, you will never ever be able to be that child in a given moment when it passes, so don’t be child of the society and indoctrination which is not you, be it and dance playfully.”

Harming other conscious beings in what ever way is sometimes part of that play and dance, stemming from wounds on that inner you, but that’s what the life and experiences are for, that what balance of all your selves is for to repair and mend those tangled up patterns in You, so that child does not rage and destroy as much as expected if the balance is maintained.
It should not be mixed up with negative ego however, sometimes ego impersonates that child to go on its own selfish ends and than it seems that inner you is dancing in disorder and destruction, while the real You is deep, deep below. Keeping balance and an outlook from all your selves in what ever form or vantage point they are keeps that danger at bay.

 

 

Lost innocence is not lost at all it is hidden, obscured.
If it weren’t for that, all the children, all the beings in the Creation would become static in their play and repeat the same dance moves over and over again.
This way the children can learn and change but stay that same innocent pure souls in their playful exploration and creation.

“We all came out into this world a complete persons, and moments in this type of life distance us from that innocence, but one perfect moment is enough for it to emerge pure into the light of day.”

That is the innocence of the universe and every one of Beings spiraling in it, be it upwards towards its core and the core of All of Creation, or downwards, to experience more and to rekindle the flame inside them.

“Universe is a child and so all of in it is as well.”